Yay! CTs over liaoz... no more stress, can do away with all the intense muggin, no more crammin of info 4 the paper chase... ppr chase is really drivin me nuts..., now can finally relax... ;) dunno whether 2 b happy or wad... cos although pprs over still dunno whether i made any careless mistakes, cos dunno y this yr i keep making careless mistakes 4 maths... eng can't help it la... chi got sme improvement... phy as well compared 2 last CA... bio also catching up... chem is the only one quite stable... actually had a stable Geog... den careless me went 2 ans the wrong ans not wad the qn wanted... many ppl as well... but could b avoided if i had interperted differently... so this yr though mugged lk 2 to 3 times more, still won't get as high GPA as last yr... damn sian...
sometimes, some stuff we juz hav 2 resign to providence... cos it juz can't b helped when things don't go ur way... work so hard n in the end juz onli get so little in return... in this world nothin is fair la... we r given our own paths to walk... changing it would be difficult, as fate does not allow it... sorry Mr Ho, i dun think i can be a pillar of the society as u said, cos i tried runnin 4 a pillar in RI like u suggested... n i ran 4 2.5 yrs... got turned down 3 times... this one included is 4 times... not veri gd... kinda tired of runnin all this while... considered that ive picked myself up from faliures 4 times... told myself that i can't take any more disappointments... not worth it... useless runnin 4 sth when there is sb out there who tries to prevent u frm gettin the chance to prove yourself...
i served 4 2,5 yrs... n what do i get? nth. u chose to choose sme Gep guy n sme high GPA exp guy instead of those whom have leadership talent, who can convince the masses... i know some who have this capability, much more than the 2 that 2 chose... the third guy is quite ok la... got a little talent, but the first 2? ok, i never badmouth ppl, n I won't do it here. but juz a question, does high GPA mean that u can lead well? does high GPA mean that u can do your part in helpin the entity aquire the high skies? Mr Ho, u were wrong to put ur faith in me, n ur son in RJ had wasted his time trying 2 hlp me... sorry... i didn't make use of my last chance at becoming a pillar of the school, neither did i make myself indispensible for the 2.5 yrs in RI, not 2 mention the 4 yrs that u wanted... unlike what u said... the sky isin't my limit, cos i think i have hardly a foot on a cloud, to be able to take that leap towards the skies... sorry, i was not able to gain wisdom from the words of advice u gave me... but i will be honour the school code wherever i go, regardless of whether i get a post or not...
went 2 J8 tdy after CT, waited 4 156, wait 4 3 buses, all filled up, damn sian... so i decide 2 take 13 instead, so walked 2 J8 n den decided to slack arnd abit... went 2 BEST lookin 4 sth, n erm... i guess i found sth i wanted... 13 more days 2 my fren's b'dae, wonder wad 2 give... hp? no money. wb? no nice ones. ep? maybe, he hinted at wantin 1... but i couldn't find any. hp cover? dunno which colour he like. finding stuff 4 guys r more difficult... but i guess i found sth tt would b fine. CD or EP ? im still thinkin... relax, i hav 2 wks 2 think... ;)
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