I tried to cry, but there were no tears. Why do I always screw up maths? Ok, b4 a test, I always calm myself down so that I can think better. But this time I did not, cos we had to rush to the AVT. Tt’s one error… but one thing I notice is that if I dun hav a calm mind when doin a paper, I juz can’t think. N there are like chao lot of careless mistakes? Wad’s goin on now? ok… I guess I can’t adapt to the cold in the AVT, can’t write properly, slow down… can’t blame alba cos she has a bad leg. Can’t blame BC cos she did teach slowly for this topic, or rather for this whole term (n im thankful 4 tt), can’t blame myself cos I’ve always been so inadaptable and nervous, n I’ve like mugged practically the whole thing the day b4? Wth la… I’m happy if I can get a 11/20 le… cos I know I screwed up 3 qns… out of 4… I’m such an idiot… can’t even do a proper test in the AVT? Why must you shiver during like half the ppr when the others don’t? pissed la… guess I wrecked many stuffs tdy… happy tt me n kel got pro marks for our maths pt… :D lol… muz try harder! I need some help. Serious. Help for my maths and maybe chem… (cos I dunno how to start solving a “mol” problem) so I ask my friends, can you help me? Maybe lk wad sb told me, when u r in trouble, only 1% of the ppl you know will stick for you. Those are your friends. And this is the world. Why is it that so many people only care for themselves alone? Do they deserve my help the next time they ask for it? I feel my heart bleeding, haiz, sad la… can sb help me? My parents dun hav tt money for tuition fees lor… den got 2 teachers hu teach like bullet trains… so sad n stressed… arrgh… dun talk abt maths CCT la… jus thinking… maybe vic or kel can help me in my maths… chem. I’ll sit down n try crackin on my own… L lookin forward to this fri though… goin SAJC to meet for finals in Chi songwriting…J
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tdy got a talk on BGRs... lol... tt guy spent lk 45 mins tokin abt sme common sense stuffs tt i think almost everyone knows... kinda tht he was a little extra... well but we learnt tt when a girl says "wadever" means tt its another way of saying " f@#* off" :D lol... im sure la... but whether its true or not, gabe is goin to piss off poor BC tmr during lesson lor... cos she keep sayin "wadever" hahax... our class was like "err..." :D
yayz, my maths finally can start 2 understand le... lessons pacing a little... kinda can pick up easier... thx!
hmm... maybe i shld say sth... stuff i dun like according to rank...
1.ppl betraying me (friendship = gg then)
2.ppl lying to me (pls dun let me find out so easily)
3.ppl withholding info from me (im not someone who is into suspense, n i hate suspense.)
still got 4 and 5... but i wun say yet... these r e top 3 la... btw lying n jokin r 2 different things. :D so can joke la... but dun joke too far... :D not like some ppl tdy really pissed me off la...
KW: "im gonna go home and spam puns into my speech..."
me:"huh? wad r puns?"
KW:"u dunno? ok nvm"
me:"hey GY, wad r puns?"
GY:"puns r (blah blah) contrasting stuff u use"
me:"oh..."
KW:"hey dun tell him my pro secrets of speech."
me:" (thinking:: wtf la) "
hey if u dun wanna tell me, den dun tell me at all can! jus dun tell me! dun wanna say den juz dun say! dun like 1/2 say, den 1/2 dun say... wth la... u really piss me off... SRY LA! my character is liddat de. i dun give up when there is sth i dunno, cos ppl lk me will juz crash my way through juz to get the truth or the ans. told vic tt day le... now u come n give me this shit... wth la... nvm, forgive n forget la... haiz... i've never blew my top at anyone since lk 2 yrs ago? n im not goin to spoil my record... hahax... vic was always sayin: "relax la..." :D lol... :) this time i think i shld learn to relax... really... or else im goin mad... will listen 2 u for this time... :D am i putting too many expectations myself and the people around me? i dun think so la... maybe tt's the reason why i only hav 2 very close frenz... :D the rest r onli like "hi!" but u dun tok anth u feel 2 them... :( the world is such la... not as perfect as it seems... so sad...
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Fri:
Watched Ice Princess wif Kelly after sch… inspirational mov I must say… “im not giving up my dreams, I’m giving up yours and going after mine.” My dreams are to be either a brain surgeon or a politician, or a researcher. Not someone who earns his pay by sitting in the desk all day in front of numbers and workin for a company like all other ppl. tt’s jus not the life a wanna lead, and though you may earn big bucks, that’s not the point here. Cos u’r not happy wif ur job. U aren’t gonna help society when u r at ur desk, jus feedin u n ur family, but there is a world out there. Guess I’ll go after my dreams. It’s not time to give up yet. Another lesson frm the movie… :D wadever you do to get you up there, do it with dignity and integrity, saboing is not an option… (the part where the trainer gave her new skates before the finals, so that she would unknowingly wear them, without seasonin, and her own daughter would get the top place…) utter shits. A competition that is unfair is no longer a competition. Haiz… left me thinking…
Sat:
Went RGGE concert wif Kelly… went J8 for dinner, hey hey… Japs can cook curry meh? Tried the meal la… its in e basement in case u’all wanna try… $4… quite nice la… first time tried Jap curry… lol… den went stoning around, slackin around, eh… got a newbie shop…? Kel saw a shirt tt he liked lor… not bad la… but I liked the one wif abstract art, imho la. :D so tt’s wad I said… in the end kel decided 2 buy e abstract art one… :D yay… damn nice lor… so sad I wanted to buy as well but I know my parents would not hear of it… cos I’ve nv bought a shirt wif my pocket money b4… lol… envy ppl who can la… den took 156 to CH wanted to cross over to NYGH, den my great suggestion… “hey, look CH got a chi restaurant? Poolside? Lol…” “have u gone in b4?” “not really, met my fren at entrance la… y?” Good Jobs… Kelly’s great suggestion… “hey, y not we go n check it out?” “what the… ok… :D” Me as usual veri ‘adventurous’ (so called)… so we went in… walkin past the security guards… one inside the guardhouse… the other walkin about… stoning or dreaming… the latter stared at us, den we continued to walk… :D went to the poolside toilet, den kel wanted to change into the new shirt… damn nice la… walao.. so sad I couldn’t buy, sep hols im thinking of buyin… but then kel already bought tt design la… craps… nvm… maybe he prefers the one he din buy but liked… but he kinda bought my opinion la… nooo… as a fren I’m honest la… I dun regret telling the truth though it wasn’t in my benefit… :D hmm… so he changed into the new shirt la… “hey hey, 10 yrs younger… :D ” “10 yrs? U 5 yrs old huh…” “(diaoz…)” “(haha)” lent him some of my cologne since he said the shirt smelt funny… at the same time also can help him attract bees…(no it does not smell like honey)
We were early la… so after stoning went to NYGH, kel bought tix… met louis, zerome (xiaoyu = wxyz_zerome… lol…), daniel sim, daniel wong, jon ho, hiok, huiyao, yichen came l8er… n 4 of my juniors… I remember one of them is leon… den 4got the other’s name… shits… nvm… went into the hall lor… b4 concert louis was lk having a 4G tel call wif his gf hu was lk onli 2 metres away frm him… lol? Kel n I laughed lk siao… xy was goin lk… “wth… go over there n tok la…” wow… ok… cb 4 o’clock… er… louis gf not bad la… can4 bu4 chu1 louis this kind of ppl ar… haiz… nothing to say… kel u had better stop accusing me of stuffs I din say horz… not funny… I have no intention of takin things not mine, ok? I know u understand what im tryin to say here, dun hav 2 make it too obvious… concert start = cb 12 o’clock… cb 12 o’clock… Walao… so evil… come concert is listen to music or see cb de… huh… lol… the main ensemble’s movements were sharp la… pro… RIGE isin’t gonna have that kind of discipline to have that kind of sounds… one thing for sure, yufang’s solo was damn pro… well done la… I have to wait like 2 yrs to learn that solo? Tango in the sky… damn nice… the runs were beautiful, the hammer on’s were gd… tactical positioning… flawless la… well done… den got valerie pan that music pro… mep student? Saw kuo xing er for the third time… she was playin bass for valerie… lolz… kel so protective of xiner… :D hahax… reminds me of lk 7 mths ago when I went to the RG open hse, of course in civ wear la… den went to spy on how gd the GE ppl were in RG… this guy askin, wad songs u’all play? “oh erm… most classic?” “I see…” ppls stone for 15 seconds… staring blank… “an example is romance de amour, have u heard of it?” “er… yes…” (xiner plays guit) “hmm… not bad la… the finger movements at here u actually can use the 6th string…, dun need to play open string… it’s the same note…” “oh ok… (3 secs) do u play guitar?” “er… ya… I little…” “oh ok…” “can let me see the scores?” “sure… we got extra here…” “you learnt the second movement?” “erm…(valerie walks over)” Valerie: “ya sth lk this… (plays)” Stranger: “oh…” Stranger walks off soon to avoid being extra… realized he has the score wif him… then oops… haiz… dun wanna extra extra go back there… after all they said they had extra… ok lor… stupid me lost the score when I got home cos after practicing left on sofa, den my mum threw it away… erz… nvm…
Back to concert… vic din wanna come, so I got a seat on my left? No la… :D tt’s b’cos those on kel’s right were 2B ppls la… lol… muz really thank those two for havin figured out the ye qu melody… yessss… I’ve found out how 2 play ye qu melody le… I noted all the positions le! Yay… will b able to play dong jie by JJ Lin once I figure the proper notes soon… thx really… one thing for sure… their rock band sucked… honest opinion here… my Gonin can own them anytime… being a singer, the basic thing that you can do is not to go off tune! Wth la… off tune like 3 times? Hey! This is a concert la! They shld get xiner or huishan to sing? The music was unbalanced also… haiz… onli one drawback… on the whole the concert was good la… :D
Hav 2 get back 2 my reading of the chi storybook… yue4 du2 che4 yan4 comin up… will blog again when I hav time… :D
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