don't read it. i just feel abit better after flaring it all up here. maybe san can relate abit 2 this. hahax. nvm. u're not the one with the strictest parents yea. dere happens 2 b sme1 here far worse. haiz...
Super pissed at my mum n dad. Wanted 2 go 2 the oriental treat this wed 7pm but no matter how I say I wun get my message through. Fishing idiots. I hate it when you stereotype all hoteliers to be bad and evil and all that nonsense. Cos it just isint true. And I hate it when you talk bad of the friends that I mix with. Cos I just wun allow that. So stop it. i hate ppl talking bad abt others in front of me, when they are obviously not what they describe. Bullshit. I live in a nonsense place, where mum calls the shots, and dad usually agrees. I have no opinion at all. Cos his word is law. Hey, who r u 2 tell me wad to do with my life. I can so very well choose to end it now, and u can’t do nuts about it. mum, I hate u. I know I shouldn’t say this. but I really hate you for all that you have done. all the shit that you put me through. It would be gd if you were just half of kel’s parents. Then life would be so much easier for me. u want grades? I show it 2 u. now hols. Nth 2 show. N u r back 2 ur old self. Is this still a family or some trade market where everything must come with a price? No money no goods? Wth. for my own good my ass. When will you stop? When im 19? 20? How late is tt? n u think i’m still your kid, immature, need guidance. Pls. im alr8y 16. I know wad I want in life. there’s no need to worry cos when I want sth, I will make sure I get it till the day I die. i made this promise to kor on 4th Dec. u can break me. but u can never force me to break my promises. In true fact, I only have a father up there, with my grandpa, and an elder brother here, with my 2 other close brothers/friends. other than that, I dun find any family anywhere else. Maybe tt’s y I never tell u anth abt myself. U think you know me well as my parents, but all you see is my act. u think you can see through my act. you think you know when I act. but in fact you don’t. cos I act out my life in front of you. That is the me you want. Then I shall let you have it your way. but u can never change my real self. You can’t change the real person inside me, without all the script, costumes, and mask. U think you understand me, in fact you don’t. you’re not god. Just to tell you. You’re not even anywhere close. 151 hrs left. And I won’t give up. Was fishing pissed yesterday night, so took out sapphire to prac frm 10 to 11. den realized tt my wrist was damn pain from the weight. Lucky thing. cos without it, I would have crashed some walls le. tired myself out. After msging kel, tok abit crap.. felt much better la.. finally can slp. =P this morning woke up to find myself pissed again. Haiz.. let me just be free for once. I’m not gonna get kidnapped or get into a fight or sth liddat. Esp not when I’m alr8y a grade 7. hmph. Only my first uncle knows tt though. My dad doesn’t know, nor does my mum. Wth la. slashed at 10:57 AM .
