I remember those times we walked through the garden, hand in hand
How sweet those memories were
where we talked and laughed and shared moments together...
under the blossoming spring and the awaiting autumn
then i knew the time was up
when we had to leave behind these memories
and take the steps into this wrinkled world
we live in here no doubt
alas, how unimaginable it is
we are confined here
engulf in worries...
soaked in sorrow...
embraced by evil...
but yet overwhelmed by love
remember this
this is the wrinkled world we live in
from victor’s blog.. really made me want 2 cry. The bloody world is screwed up. People putting themselves before any other thing. I hate tt kind of freaking attitude! Bloody hell. Where can I find a world where we all care for one another? i plead guilty for having entertained such thoughts before, where I dun give a damn about wdv happens to ppls around me who are not my friends. Basic concept = not my fren, then u r on ur own. In war, if u’re not on my side, u’re my enemy. Cos dere’s no such thing as neutral here. Oh well. I hate this imperfect world. Maybe its time to recreate it, and repopulate it with better people. People who know kindness, sharing, caring, sacrifice, happiness, freedom. Singaporeans dun know a shit about these. Even my chosen closest friends lack them. ohmytian la. What is this place coming to? The only place I can find peace is back at fuji. cultured people, blessed hearts. Isit cos my close friends r jealous of me? Y? y do u want to choose me as ur benchmark? Y do u value grades over friendship? True that I have few friends, but for every friend that I have, i can willingly lay my life for him. Death before dishonor. Isint that what our forefathers have been imparting to us? Can we be friends again? Just like last yr? when you were the kind you that stood by me, when we walked home together, chatted together, joked and laughed. I felt you were like another kor to me. Why have you changed? You’re different. No longer the friend I once knew. I sense that you see me as your competitor now. No longer as a friend. why me. If you hate me so much then just pull a pencil through my heart. i give you this chance. Just don’t treat me like that. I can’t take it. pls? im crying as I write this. The last thing I need now is a guy that’s so jealous of me that he’ll go through all means to destroy me. I want the old you. The one whom I can confide in, and the one who cares for me.
Now for better things despite my sad mood. Wishing all lovers a happy Valentines Day. Haven’t gone out with anyone on this date since like 6 yrs ago. Went home wif kel, on e way stopped b4 J8 2 bubble. =) its nice after a long day ba.. dun suan me. I was wif u e whole time so I can’t possibly b at another place wif sb else at the same time. Yea. Din go out this yr as usual. Kel n Shing, now u believe tt I dun hav any gf ba.. lol..
Hmm.. tdy lessons quite ok ba.. abit sleepy though. Tmr got guit rehearsal at SCH somemore. So sianx.. on chi new yr celebrations lor.. haiz.. should have chosen a bttr date can! Hmm.. kel spat on his ppr during lesson.. eew. Think he choked or wad. Damn funny lor.. =D hahax.. haix.. dunno y l8er during chi n chem den he tao me le.. chi cover bk, chem tao me.. damn sad lor.. haiz…
haiz.. dunno sme ppls also attitude me, force me pick up scrap ppr tt was on the floor, I say l8er, den come n throw my book on e floor. Wtf la. Seriously pissed me off. I would have lost my cool if it was just some other person. Dun push too far. Warning. 1. never try to crumple any piece of document that belongs to me. 2. never allow my stuffs to touch anywhere else except the table and not once should it be ever close to the floor. 3. dun make fun of my surname. Make fun abt my name is ok to some small extent la, cos I take it as a joke. But pls have some basic respect can?!! I get damn bloody pissed off at these things.
Haiz.. maybe its cos i dun really belong to this society’s habits. Where they dun happen to dignify scholastic objects, unlike the culture that im accustomed to. Oh well, different beliefs ba.. I just have to control my temper. oh yea, shing’s quite a nice guy la, maybe one day can be my close fren. Hahax..
Hmm.. my brothers regard me as the top 5 ppls in their lives whom they cannot live without. Me too! =) Maybe one day I’ll set sth lk tt for close friends, less chance of choosing a friend in a guy who hates u. =’( haiz.. dun wanna know anymore la. Gokenshu should be out by sat. den mon can go show my masterpiece. 5 strikes, each encompassing 5 different forms, 5 different methods of execution. 1 way to strike, in 5 motions, 1 blade as though it was five others together. Obviously with all five blades present den got the better effect la. lk duh should let us all try together. Some day. But not on cny la. LOL! anw, finishing it soon.
Hmm.. goin 2 slp now. Yawns.. yea, sme kind soul pls water my taggie.. =(
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