Sunday, March 11, 2007 . Don't read this. pls. dun read.
Kind of wondered if you really treat me as your friend, or rather your competitor, or your enemy. I really don’t know wad you’re thinking, sometimes when I try to help you, you return my help with your stuck-up attitude. When I try to care for you, you brush off my concerns. The last time you asked from me a favour, which was just lk 2 days ago, I suddenly had flashbacks of all that you did to hurt me. maybe I shouldn’t have been too close to you. I should be just lk u.
“maybe I shouldn’t have taken geog sitting beside you. maybe I should just take my own notes, and when you ask to copy abit, I just selfishly dun lend you, dun let you learn. cos I dun lk ppl to be smarter than me. Cos I’m happy when I score better than you. cos I treated you as my benchmark and never as a friend. too bad you treat me as your friend. wow, close friend too. But I’ve never treated you as mine. You’re just there so I can use u. wdv I dunwan to do, I pass to you. you’re there to just listen to what I say, and you’re my servant, what I order you to do, you must do. You treat me well is your problem, cos I wont reciprocate. I’ve in fact never cared for you. when you’re injured I don’t give a damn, who are you to me? pain or not I dun really care ok? tt time I got injured I also wun let your filthy hands touch my finger to see if its ok. so many times you help me, but I still wun let you know the real figure for bio, I dunwan you to be as smart as me. my GPA must win you this year. you exist just to help me to win you. I dun share my notes with you, cos you were wrong to regard me as a friend. I never once thought that you were. Stupid fool. Don’t you get it? this is my attitude. I’m just making use of you. =)
I don’t like it when you score better than me. how can it be? This can’t be! I must win you. I hate it when you get extra marks, when you din deserve them, but they were given to you. although I dun stand to gain any marks, but im happy that you din get your A+ for Chinese. Woots! Yay! not tt bad huh.. I borrow your paper from you and see if the teacher was lenient to you, and he did mark you wrongly. Heng ah.. liddat I dun lose to you so much le. you’re just my dartboard. Since when were you my friend? lucky I managed to use peer pressure to force you to give up your marks. Hah. Even if you don’t I’ll still report to the teacher myself.”
And for that, I’ll remember this incident. Even vic said tt I should have just kept quiet. I hereby vow tt you will never get to touch my papers in future. You once helped me get back my marks for my chem OBA last yr, even though you knew I was wrong. I was grateful for that, and tt’s y we became friends. I decided to help you, to aid you through these months. But this is how you repay my kindness. I will never forgive you. for you have left a deep cut in my heart. This is one wound that will never heal. Forever leaving a scar. The tales talk of the selfish human heart driving away the grateful spirits that were to help man who had once helped them before. Maybe its time for me to become that emotionless blade again.
it was you who did not treasure this friendship, not me. i looked upon you as a friend, even a brother, but you betrayed my trust. And trust once lost can never be gained back. slashed at 10:24 PM .
