Sry for the wingdings posts, I just can’t bring myself to post such emo stuffs, so decided to leave it in wingdings, so as to keep ppls who know this blog from reading what I feel now.
basically summing up the whole entire post of wingdings, is this. I regret not listening to my kor. My father once told me, “your closest friend is your greatest enemy”. How true. I can’t believe that I’ve actually befriended such an idiot. You’re insensitive and self-centered. U only fking care about yourself and dun consider the feelings of others around you. my heart is bleeding, and the last time that I felt such I weird feeling was 2 yrs ago, when a gd fren betrayed me, and 5 yrs ago, when another gd friend left me. I got a good mind that one of us can go die right now, if it should solve the problem.
Friends closest to you just hurt you the most, cos you bare your soul to them, and they know your weaknesses, so they use them to harm you. these aren’t your true friends though they say they are.
I guess I miss the old you. I dunno what’s happened. This yr you’ve changed. Really changed a lot. I should say that last yr you were the best friend I’d ever had in my life. I wished you would stay like that forever. You taught me care. You reinforced in me the true meaning of sacrifice. For such a friend, I wouldn’t mind laying down my life for him, as I believed that he would too.
But you’re different now. dunno wad’s gotten into you. maybe insensitive and self-centered is an understatement. You dun need friends now, cos they’re not important to you right? All you want is to be better than others and you don’t give a damn on how you achieve your goals. I dare say that I may be lacking in integrity at times (but you’re much worse off. bloody hypocrite.) but my true friends rank just below god in my heart, together with my parents and my kor.
The old you will stay in my heart forever, as the best friend I’ve ever had.
Went msia on sat, rushed back on mon. oh well, went to hand in my 500 “essays”. cos of some ungrateful friend, I had to write tt. now my hand is damn pain can? Every year, someone just has to betray me.. is this my fate or what? Or is it tt god knows tt I never forgive anyone so he wants to make me learn forgiveness?
I keep rerunning the incidents in my mind. dunno y. is this what they call mental torture?
Maybe I’ll forgive you this time, just change for the better k? it’s gd tt u realize how u’ve been so far, at least u know tt u’ve been such an idiot. just let me put everything behind me now. give you one chance. last one. pls dun let me lose all faith in you. thx.
Guess u kinda have returned to how u were b4, but its no longer the same after all the hurt tt u caused me. I’ll try to accept u again. and I guess we have to start all over again.
slashed 3 wooden dummies right across their body, into half just 3 days ago. 1st time. well done la. kor was damn shocked. =P guess I pro la.. cos kor only managed 2 do it once. Not 3 times. n not to the thickness of dummies, but to a tree.. hehe.. yay.. pro pro.. oh well, when ppl get angry, they can do a lot of things I guess. Relax la, im ok, I jus dunwan 2 tell u cos u can’t do anth abt it la.. lol.. anw, thx 4 ur concern, kor. im fine.
Oh well, stressed out, sad, and frustrated. Kinda pissed, but decided to calm down la. no point rite? was thinking of moving my blog. To somewhere else, so tt I wun need to post in wingdings again. anw, wt closed down her blog again. prolly some fked up idiot came to harass her. just report it to the police la. is there anth else tt u can do? Unless u want to keep closing ur blog for the rest of your life? haiz.. u taught us how to be firm at times rite? sec 2 CLE on assertiveness. rmb now? Haiz.. up 2 u la.. I have no right to say tt u shld face up 2 this stuffs when I can’t even handle my own probs. But its ur choice.
Between grades and friendship, which one would you choose? I asked vic tt qn ytd, he chose friendship. Thanks. Least I know I have a true friend that I can rely on and trust. Those of you who choose grades, get out of my life. you are not worthy to be my friend.
“Live by what you trust, not by what you fear.” dunno hu said b4.
slashed at 11:22 PM .
