Tdy damn sad leh.. screwed up maths test. =’( can cry la. haiz.. not in a very gd mood. y am I so dumb lor. mug so hard in the end still dunno how to do e proving qn. Other ppls can do leh. its not so difficult after all. im jus a dumb guy hu can’t jus seem to learn anth right.. haiz.. so kel, dun need to say I pro lor. cos im not. and to say tt im noob would be an understatement. cos when the whole class understands a topic, (esp maths), i usually lag and dun seem to know what’s goin on.. tt’s how dumb I can be k. oh well. Sometimes its ok to say im pro la.. hahax.. jus 4 fun.. den hthl abit.. =P but not b4 tests! Cos its damn suan can? and u put a lot of extra pressure on me lor. nxt time u say tt b4 tests again I not gonna tok 2 u le. hmph..
bad mood la. sianx.
slashed at 11:16 PM .
Hi, sapphire here again. master came back quite fine tdy.. seemed tt he was quite ok la.. but fell onto his bed and slept. Cos he was damn tired after last nite chionging all e work til 12 last nite.. hmm.. (L-1) shared his newton’s laws wif master tdy. lent him 2 copy e last part when he wanted to during recess. (L-1) wanted master 2 follow him to divide quartets and triplets, so lent master e notes aft lesson.. hmm.. (L-1) isint tt selfish tdy, back to his old self le. =) thank you for bein your kind self again. =)
Guess what master wants is a good friend, and one who would be interested in the same paracetamols that he would wanna take up to cure as many people as he could when he grew up, and that friend to stay by his side, as they supported each other in whatever that they undertook to become the most successful cures to save the ailing masses. Master has the people at heart, and he hates to see them crying or suffering. Me too. Jus can’t take it when ppls cry. He told me that he wanted someone who would follow him all the way through college, university, even to the same hospital where they would begin their housemanship, and then continuing on to the path to becoming the best cures that they could ever be, to cure the people, and let them lead better lives. He wanted someone with the same vision as he, someone who also had the heart of the people. (L-1) was one whom he believed had the potential. (U+1) was also another option, but he was too fame hungry and results orientated, dunno whether he would be able to sacrifice his time to care and step into the unknown to find out and experiment more, even if it does not guarantee results, cos he’d hather spend his time on results producing work.. =(
(L-1) can be said to have the heart of the people, just tt he’s very jealous, and will sacrifice friendship for the sake of his results. Oh well, is this what RI is breeding? A bunch of students who only care about exams and tests and dun bother abt learning? sometimes I jus wanna tell some ppls off, when they start to compare marks. Comparing would only make people hate each other and try to outdo the other. As such, they would keep information from each other, and in a way preventing the other from learning more. Hey. People want to learn. they dun give a damn abt how high u score. I believe in just learning for knowledge, not for marks. Of course, marks have to be of an acceptable standard, but the real reason behind why we study is to get educated, and not to get marked! Wth. if ppls prevent each other from learning due to this stupid form of competition, can RI even improve if the learning environment is so screwed up? ppls are deprived of a chance to learn, and we come to school to learn. stop this unhealthy competition. Stop comparing marks. im just lk u, a fellow student. Y can’t we study together? and learn from each other, to be the best we can be? I want to be ur friend, not ur benchmark. Your greatest enemy is you yourself. power without control is nothing. control your latent primary evils and your instinctive competition, and you have just won the battle of your life.
(L-1), thx 4 being master’s gd fren. pls dun make him sad anymore k?
slashed at 11:01 PM .
Hi, im sapphire. Sharing my master’s feelings. Cos he’s feeling down tdy. guess he’s damn disappointed with his friends, and damn sad too..
I can sense his thoughts cos im his blade. what he feels, I feel too. I can read his mind. master was damn sad when he came home tdy, jus laid on his bed and locked e rm, started crying. Guess it must have been tiring to put up a false front, to act strong in front of all his schoolmates when his heart was that of blood. Never seen him so emo b4.. he held me in his arms and cried. No one would know this side of him, cos he keeps his secrets well hidden from all, even his own family members. I asked him what happened. And he told me his story. He once had a good friend called (L-1). Hmm.. value of L u must search on your own, den using the value, -1, to get the ans. (L-1) was his good friend last yr, went out together, shopping, slacking around, doin random stuffs together. master treated (L-1) like his brother. then he betrayed master, caused master to lose 2 drops of blood in china. Master never knew that his close friend whom he always treated as his kin brother would betray him out of jealousy. He felt a sharp pain in his heart. Why the sudden change? Wasn’t this his closest friend, the (L-1) who helped him argue to get a drop of chemical last yr? wad happened? (L-1) treated master like his slave, whilst they had been such close friends last yr. even din want to share info with master anymore, when all times master had been gracious and forgiving and lent his info to (L-1). (L-1) accused master of being selfish. and he always sabo him too. What the hell la. I really think he’s a hypocrite. Master should seriously forget about such a friend if he doesn’t even treat master as one.
It was good Friday and master had sought to resolve all hatred and forgive all those whom had betrayed him or let him down b4.. but tdy, just 2 days after good Friday, (L-1) showed how self centered he was again. master borrowed notes from a friend to copy cos he din know how to do. (L-1) jus snatched it away when he left it on his table and used it as his own. din even have the courtesy to ask. And worse still, din want to share, just wanted to keep it all to himself. What is your freaking problem? I so really wanted to replace freaking with an expletive. Master was really mad at (L-1). Couldn’t take it anymore. Super pissed, ended up shouting at him. (L-1), ur attitude sux. You know how hurt master was? U don’t. cos u only bloody care for yourself. even when master went to England to obtain another drop of blood that the government there owed him, u said that he only deserved one, out of the 2 that the govt owed him. in the end the govt only gave him 1. this I saw was out of pure jealousy. U din lk it when he scored higer than u. cos u treated him as ur benchmark, as ur dartboard. But, never as your friend. I feel sad for master. He was damn disappointed in you. u treat your friends like dirt. No wonder all of your friends think you’re a jerk. Master can forgive, but never can he forget.
He’s chionging his hw now. using all this work to escape from the pain. So he wun think of it. but u r the one who is causing him all this hurt. today can still come and say he slack for the geog poster. It’s the same as when u din hav the chance to do what you could, u also din wan ppls to say that you din do anth for the ss resolution. n u dunwan ppls to say tt to you. y do you say tt to me now? don’t you feel guilty at all? I feel pissed when I meet such hypocrites. Can’t we just be friends again? if not, our friendship ends here, and we’re just classmates.
slashed at 12:28 AM .
Fri = slack day, recess time listen music on kel’s mp3.. listened to heaven 911, damn sad song. abt this girl who lost her father in the 911 incident. Really made me wanna cry. Oh well. I hate bein sentimental. Wdv.. pls dun include it inside e album. Graduation song also damn emo.. a lot of meaning.. though in ri can’t find such true friends.
Hmm.. I jus realized tt I dun hav any true frenz. As of tdy, both of my best friends have died. One a hypocrite who only cares for himself, and the other who dumped me when I was damn sad. wdv la.
Screwed up phy CT... sianx..
Ever wondered if there are really true friends in this world? I dunno. Seems to me that there aren’t. I choose to return to bein that lone blade once more.
slashed at 11:44 PM .
