Dunno how I shld b feeling now. I’m hugging by bolster close to me in front of the computer. I haven’t cried yea. I stared at my left arm resting on the desk and somehow saw it bleeding in my mind. From the top, blood trickles down to my elbow joint. then it flows down to the floor. Drop by drop of red. Blood red. I guess tt’s how my heart feels yea. its cold. I think its frozen. I dun feel anth. Its like...... just blanked out. Ok, I’ve to fact the fact that I’ve let down 11 out of 22 ppl who believed in me and nominated me. Yea. cos some fucking ppl dun think I’m up to the job. Yea, I know I din want to tell them about my qualifications, cos I wanted to get in through their trust in me and not through my past status as a committee member, PSL, vice chair, and pupil leader. Yea, there you go, if u want it so badly. You thought my votes were just popularity votes right? Since you have no faith in me and choose ppl jus cos they go and boast that the traits about themselves are their posts in sch b4, then so be it yea. to think that you don’t fucking give me a chance to show that I’ve got the support of my batchmates, and think through your interviews you know enough of us when you have never bothered to interact with us b4, just cos I said tt seniors din interact wif us much then u get some guys to come down have dinner with us and consider tt done? I should really say tt u guys really suck. And this comes from one of the only 120 nominees of the international student leadership conference representing Singapore. SINCE YOU GUYS CARE SO MUCH ABOUT QUALIFICATIONS AND NOT QUALITIES. Fine. I think I know my priorities in life now. Studying should take first place. Vic was right yea. *hugs my godbrother* yea, I shall cherish what I have too yea.. listen to you. And thanks sister joo for wanting to share my thoughts.. *kiss ur forehead* *pats* =) I feel bttr yea.. I miss RI, and all my friends, my godbros, my quirky juniors.. and those nice teachers.. my seniors were nice ppl too then.. I’m glad I served RI well. ok. I’m just emo n pissed now. Dun bother abt me yea. I’m sry I let you ppl down. Sry. I should just die.
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It’s a long time since I’ve had time to sit down and blog le.. lol.. feeling kinda stressed yea, about all the upcoming events and all.. about my SPA coming up in a few days time, which would be counted towards A’s.. and the countless tests that happen to fall just so nicely close to one another. And I’ve not been listening through much of econs lecture, so I’m v blur about wad’s going on about the TVC, AVC, TC and TRC. Got to catch up. Maths tut is super challenging for a guy like me who isint that creatice in thinking to try and solve problems. So the answers are wrong. and it kinda pisses me off.. my class is one which is a super mugger class, yet dun listen in class, and dun bother to listen, yet go home mug can score damn well. I should say I’m in a GEP class la.. everything also expect us to know le. I must say tt teohuikoon runs through tuts like a bullet train.. can’t really catch up..
Ok, tdy attempted my phy tut 4. and it was damn tiring. Took half the day.. now’s like 4pm, and with help of yitao’s notes, kinda finished it. din blindly copy, of the 12 qns, 1 qn I still dunno even with the notes, and like 5-6 are those I think if I do again I’ll prolly not know how to do. Ok. this is bad. Really. I gotta do some serious mugging during the hols man. Serious. Or else I’m really really really dead.
Wednesday’s the elections. Tuesday’s the SPA.. hopefully I can manage to do well for SPA yea.. and I really really wanna get voted on Wednesday.. stress is on me now.. lol.. I’ll try to cope yea.. anw, thanks zhiwei for tt chat ytd.. hahax.. I feel bttr tdy.. luv ya! The angel will balance his cherubim, and also his flowers yea.. =) its cos of u tt he realized there can be a balance.. HAHA.. though I dunno if can anot.. but its worth a try.. =D thanks!
<<<.Destiny.Awaits.>>> Avalon's Accolade. The Angel grows wings. A good seraph loves his cherubim. And his rose too.
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YAY! Damn happy tdy.. shot a 179/180. Using my favourite bow.. =) (the light brown one with blue “sight”) damn nice to shoot.. 99.444% accuracy. WOOTS! HAHA. OMG la.. was really high jus now.. jus tt cannot show it in front of ppl.. damn.. =P My shots were quite nicely ALL yellows.. one strayed to 9 la.. others were like 10. 10. 10. 10.. =D YAY. Two arrows WENT THROUGHT THE MIDDLE OF THE BOARD. =) hahax.. *hugs my lovely bow* lol.. I think I get the hang of it le.. guess I got a godsis in archery den mask% decreases, my mind is more focused on the targetboard and the release. Yay.. thanks zhiwei! ur presence also gives tt serenity needed for my shot. More of being myself, more confidence? Hahax.. thankx youx! =) =) =) lol.. guess I now dun rely tt much on flowerpot aura le.. cos tdy only saw her(C) ONCE this morning.. but tdy’s skill still damn pro! HAHA. Coolx. Lol.. the j2s electing the next yr’s exco soon.. I so very wanna b that guy to help everyone unite together, to push on as a team. Maybe I’m not as strict and full of rules like some people. Maybe I dun boss around n raise my voice to get attention. Yea. bad points. Hahax.. maybe its cos I always see leadership as a position in which the leader serves his people. To bring them together without the need of exertion n stuff. Maybe tt’s my style.. =) Hope there’s some people out there who appreciate it! =D Main difference I guess, is cos even as a leader, my friends will always stay as my friends.. and never my subordinates. The way I talk to anyone won’t change yea. hahax.. my previous exco can attest to it! =D hope you all enjoyed working with me yea! and hopefully I’ll lead another team to another beautiful success, another beautiful concert, another gold with honours. =) I miss you guys. Alot. It was nice working with you all, victor, hiok, jon gan, jon ho, kevin, eugene, keng chee, reyrey, xiaoyu, jiakai.. really, really miss you all.
Lol.. shall get going with my PI now.. got consultation on wed. tdy muz chiong finish. Hahax.. hope tmr’s chem mock SPA goes well.. hope got ppl nominate me.. if got means got ppl admire my capabilities ma.. hahax.. I feel happy now.
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