Splintering, Suggestive, Cold.
The Voices pulsate through our minds.
We search for a meaning to life,
Yet we are blinded by the truth.
He falses it upon himself,
Truth is what He seeks,
But He delves into Truth,
And He delves into himself.
Never a lie has never been told,
Yet he chooses to chase cars.
Searing, Metallic, Cold.
The world was once beautiful.
----- The Fallen Angel.
slashed at 9:24 PM .
Did CIP project hearts: lovenotes with godbro jiale tdy… lol.. its really nice to see that nice people still do exist in this world.. all I see around me is selfish people in my life. Maybe I should just stay away from those people. Least they corrupt my soul. Finished phy remedial ws le.. tt’s a gd thing. And with no errors. Just gotta keep in mind that S= displacement, and if object comes up and down then S = 0. yea. smart way to do things.. just din think of that early enough so spent quite some time thinking.. lol.. finished watching the legend.. kind of an interesting show ba.. nice ending.. in the end he destroyed the Tian1 Gong1 and killed the guardians and himself, and the antagonist. And he chose to believe mankind. So at the end of the series it was revealed that heaven’s decision to send down the Jooshin king every 2000 years was not because the king was meant to stay there and become a good king, as that was not the main objective, but it was to evaluate mankind to see if they would be able to govern themselves and not need the help of heaven. The last part of the show, if he had killed the phoenix guardian and left the earth safe from her wrath, the story would repeat itself over and over again every 2000 years, and new guardians, new villains.. with the Jooshin king sent down every 2000 years to save the world.. that would be heaven’s governing, and the answer as implied that mankind was not ready to accept its own governance over itself, and would have to seek the heavens in his decisions. But he broke the cycle, destroying all the artifacts, and the guardians, bringing them along with him to heaven, as he walked through the light. Lol.. heard a J & J talkshow on Friday at sch canteen.. quite meaningful ba.. though it was not very secular, it kinda makes me feel that there’s still love and feelings in humans, gives me reason to believe in the human heart. seems that people are not that fake after all.. humans do have a kind heart. especially today when I saw a lady donating $50 into my donation can.. not some rich lady, but some neighborhood aunty.. went into a shop behind us at toa payoh hub later, then seeing her 背影 reminds me of the good in people.. maybe its just humans, meant to love and suffer with equal intensity.
“Where evil exists, we may then contrast the good in people.” --- The Fallen Angel
slashed at 11:08 PM .
Had archery farewell for the J2s tdy.. morning had band prac for this coming concert on the 27th.. lol.. 2pm went bowling with the rest.. quite ok ba.. but my hand started to hurt again.. so I couldn’t bowl well… lol.. later went pool.. did like 4-5 zai shots.. some tt I din know I’ll even get in.. hehe.. lucky me.. HAHA.. then 6pm went to fish and co.. did a lot of stupid and random stuffs man.. like passing the fish head to amin and sorts.. later took few photos.. I especially like the one I climbed to the top of the L-O-V-E structure with coach ken, yan wei, serene, michelle, and barbara who almost fell off when she tried to get off the structure.. lol.. interesting.. had to leave cos it was quite l8 ltdr.. then met chris kuan and dillion at MRT.. apparently a lot of ppls like to go out tdy.. esp RJ peeps.. met Ari and Taufik and Ruiyong and trackers at pool.. then jon ho at mrt this aftn.. hahax.. free day for the win! =) lol.. had a can of chardonnay semillion on the way home.. 13% alcohol.. was quite nice though.. abit bitter.. I’ll try barcardi peach one day.. I think it shld b quite nice.. purposely drank tdy.. cos no other day I could hav e chance to buy wor.. cos I’m wearing sch u all the time when I’m outside.. and I dun go out often yea.. LOL.. yea.. I’m kind of a bz person.. hahax.. =D tmr’s sch day again.. so fast.. haizzz.. hahax.. kk, i'm feeling sleepy now... must be due to the chardonnay.. LOL.. my body is abit red now.. shall go slp.. hahax.. gdnite!
slashed at 10:54 PM .
the clock tt served our family for like 17 yrs has now stopped working.. used to see it in the hall all the time, golden frame, pale yellow interior.. this post is in memory of you. thanks for your hard work till your death. we will miss you alot. go in peace.
my heart feels lk its lost something. i got a bare minimum D for chem tdy. that's a double D. sucks sia. dunno la.. life's kind of lost its meaning. frozen in flames. hatred is empowering my soul now. i can't control it for long.
slashed at 11:42 PM .
Got back phy CT tdy. Ok I did really badly.. I think I’m the lowest in class. Got a 49/100. sux la.. my definitions were wrong. and qns which I haven’t come across I dunno how to solve. I seriously suck la.. haiz.. i’m starting to think that jiale was right.. life doesn’t have any more meaning to it now tt it’s just screwed.. I’ve always wanted to help others around me when I grew up.. I always had the dream of making the world a better place. But seeing the world as it is now, its hard to change people the way that they are, its hard to find even someone who is willing to care for you and to be cared by you. Its hard to find true friends I guess. Few ba.. and those whom I thought were my close friends always break my heart. nvm. I’m just very emo now. Watched a scary movie on sun and before sleeping I asked myself if I should be afraid of those who seek my life if those events were possibly true. I was afraid of them, I thought. But I suddenly remembered this kid who drove a pencil into his mum’s leg at the age of 8 in a fit of anger. he’s evil. he doesn’t deserve to live. even if he were to die, no one will find it a pity. The most the evils can do to him is taking away his life, killing him. but he’s no longer afraid of death.
slashed at 11:54 PM .
I got a maths tut 8b that I gotta finish by 2nite. Gd job. I really hate the pace of RJ. Sux sia.. tdy went with merril and khai cheong to LT2 for econs.. at least the lecturer dere is much bttr than the one at LT1. at least I understand stuffs now. The old lady may be old but she sure can teach better than most teachers yea.. quite interesting lessons wor.. saw her and her dere.. shall not mention who and who.. hahax.. haiz..
You know, it was quite hurting when you told me that I was a bother, and that I was irritating. I haven’t gotten over it since. Not when it came from you. No one has ever talked to me that way, and I never expected you to. i used to think that we were good friends. I used to think that you felt that way too. maybe I was wrong. you don’t seem to talk to me anymore. I don’t know what changed you, but I guess i don’t know how I can change things. Tell me what went wrong k? I’ll try to change if I have to.
Would you give me that chance? You know, its quite hard to talk to you now.. i opened your convo window on msn and stared at it.. i typed and backspaced. cos i'm scared tt you're busy.. (like your status says..) and that you'll find me irritating and sorts.. probably will strain our friendship in the worst case.. so i'm leaving you as you are. i'm won't start convo la.. i guess i'll wait for you to start.. then we'll chat like the good old days.. i hope yea. i miss those times when i'd wait for you after school.. and we'll stone around and chat.. but its no longer possible.. when u have pw, and ur subject projects.. i miss those days.. i guess i just miss you.. i'm very sorry that i can't bring myself to say this in front of you, maybe typing requires less courage. but yea, i miss u.
slashed at 7:51 PM .
