god, why do you take the people whom i care for away from me? i've got two close friends of mine.. one who's infatuated with you to neglect her studies and the other who thinks that you're gonna let her burn in hell and so becomes so sucidal that things get scary. now, what's going on? god, i've been a changed person, i've fulfilled my end of the bargain.. to help those around me.. and is this how you fulfill yours? god, is it possible for me to have friends and yet score well in school? it happens over and over again.. just like in pri sch.. god, if i believe in you, then please help me make things right. i don't want a test of my will. i'm tired.. please stop testing me. for i may one day give up and break, cos as much as you may think i'm not, i'm still human, not your ideal angel. but i'll still try to rid the world of evil and madness, and do it for my heart. have mercy on me.. i hate you for testing me. i never liked it. and what am i supposed to do now?
slashed at 11:11 AM .