ok. me shall stop flowerpotting le.. although i kinda like the feeling when your hand touches mine.. and stays there for the next minute or so.. oh wells.. i'm so confused.. but i guess we could stay as friends yea? close friends? i've got As coming up.. and though i'd like to be with you, i needa be with my books too.. and i know this relationship is only gonna be temporary, till june? cos we won't be seeing each other again for quite a long time.. before i break for my As, i wanna hug you, go out for another few drinks, and take few pictures with you.. then i'll be able to leave for mugging in peace.. i'm so afraid i might just forget some people in my life close to me.. especially when i don't contact them for a very long time, or when i'm preoccupied with my mugging or work.. just sth to say..
just a little message to you if you know you're the abovementioned person:
you're dear to me.. i like you too, but i've only known you for 3 months.. that's a rather short period of time.. i don't really show that i like you, i act nonchalant on days.. but that's cos i've an outer appearance to keep.. i'm sorry if i've hurt you k? i'm not rejecting you, i'm just trying to control my emotions from getting the better of me.. you don't really know much about me yet, so i don't want you to regret k? actually, i would love to have you as my godsis.. hahax.. but the thing is that, i don't love you in the same way as i love my godsiblings.. it feels different.. here's a piece of truth, in case you can't tell it, but i give people a cold appearance so that they won't have a chance to enter my mind and mess up whatever fragile stuffs that are inside.. i keep alot of secrets.. some kept to keep the people around me safe.. some kept to keep myself safe from fake friends.. some secrets kept to protect you from me. i'm not as good as i appear to be.. i'm just living that ideal life that my parents want of me, that my friends want of me.. someday, maybe you'll get to know me better.. but sth you must know, is that i've never regretted liking you. ever. =) and maybe for the rest of my life, i might just do smilies this way.. (: instead of the :)
and gosh.. you damn wad leh.. when i said "i called your phone so that you could feel the vibrations" i was totally meaning that so you could find it easier. really! omg.. v funny meh.. u ah.. i really nth to say.. all your fault that my image of a pure and innocent person is not tarnished.. hmph.. trust you to think of such connotations.. --__--" wad kinda mind do you have.. HAHA.. although 40% of what i speak contains puns, it isn't true for everything! =)
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