lol.. saw my godsis simjoo whilst ponning phy lect.. hahax.. haiz.. i forgot to ask you out for lunch to catch up yea! hmm.. but i'm guessing you still had lessons ba.. so sorry! i wasn't concentrating cos i'd just walked out of a lecture about to start! hahax.. yea.. maths lecture is useless.. and phy lecture is equally bad, considering that it's the rafflesian spirit talking.. the one who make me screw up my work, energy, power last year by listening to her talk.. In RJ, i learnt sth.. those who pay attention in lectures don't actually learn. they just sit, stone, and copy. people who go home and read the notes learn more in that hour. so use that hour of lecture time wisely, and go to the library to do your tutorials.. read the notes at home. =) do this for maths and phy(sometimes) only.. (:
lol.. met alicia during maths/physics block.. hahax.. din realise she was from city harvest church.. yea.. the famous/infamous church who has rumours of pastors who are able to raise ppl from the dead, and cure the handicapped.. ok, apparently she says it's true.. gah! such ppl exist then why don't you pray for the people at the hospital? i asked. cos that way, we would have less people ill, and less suffering in the world.. isn't that good? well, here's the reply. the pastor doesn't heal the people, he prays for them to be healed.. and god heals them.. but it only works for some people.. and not others.. so it's not the pastor who can heal, but it's he who can pray to heal people, and it works selectively based on god's will.. OK. i don't know what to make out of this. the info that i get is that the pastor has some powers of healing, that when he prays, someone can get healed through god. and the other info i get is that god's damn biased, that he only chooses to heal some good people and not others, or the pastor's damn selfish, that he doesn't want to share his powers with the people who need it.. the ones who suffer from pain each day.. the unfortunate children with leukaemia.. the cancer stricken patients who lie in bed each day waiting to die.. and most of the time, it's not their fault for being there..
maybe that's why i wanted to be a doctor once.. to provide for these patients to the best that i can.. oh wells.. i don't know la.. i'd fail as a doctor since i can't take gore.. i can take blood, it's fine, just not gore. i faint at the faintest sign of gore.. (did i just make a pun? haha..)
rightt.. i just don't know what's going on with this world.. why are people so selfish.. why is god not helping his creations? i'm tired.. tired of trying to make things right.. i've done that all my life.. and it's not making a difference.. not very much at least.. it's so difficult that i've almost given up.. ): haiz.. maybe god's tired of trying to rectify the errors too.. so he's letting his people try to sort out their own differences.. and if they end up killing each other, it's fine, he's got the power to build another world from start.. doesn't matter, he'll make a better creation the next time.. after all, heaven is big enough to store the billions of helpless innocent souls..
ok, i'm getting emo over homeless children and how god's taking a back seat on some stuffs.. all when i'm supposed to mug phy spa now.. great. shall go mug le ba.. blog on life another time.. =) i currently feed on love to move on.. it's the living energy that keeps me alive.. (: and me thanks yous. for keeping me alive. more alive than a mugging machine or a living zombie.
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