this is a ranting post.. so don't read it if you hate rants.. yea, i know, i should just face up to life and all that. but at times, i just don't want to.. when life's pitched at too high a level for you, you might just think of giving it up.. like how some people put it.. "i think we should just pon life.." or maybe it's just us. in this screwed up environment, which values only those who have a superior mind and body than others.. well, it's true yea? in nature hasn't that always been the case, and the animals always struggle to become stronger to survive? man has degenerated to become more and more like animals.. (oh, don't get me wrong, i love animals..) but i just don't think we should end up becoming like them.. all chasing after something that's the criteria to live, because without that we'd die.. so we keep chasing through all our lives, and when do we then stop to appreciate this gift god has given us?
just had napfa retest tdy.. yea.. guess wad, i can get gold for the other stations, except sliver for the shuttle run(cos of my tall CG..) and fail pull ups(righttt.. no pulling muscles. who pulls stuffs everyday?). so we all know that we've gotta get at least 5 pull ups to get a silver. i did 4. cos the 5th one i kicked half my way up.. yes, i am so being sour grapes.. some ppl dun need to train for these kinda things n get a gold/silver easily.. and my max is lk 5/4.5.. after training for lk so long..(since last year..) anw, i failed cos he din allow, so yea. sucks. i hate tt guy. f*** off and die. sometimes i wish i'd done the test with my own class and passed it? cos otega is quite lenient.. he doesn't care how you go up, as long as you go up, you're fine. right. i'll try next week ba.. stupid fella. i'm starting to hate sch life. it's monotonous, stupid, and we don't do the things we'll probably be doing next time in life. i mean, like why not we choose to learn psychology or sth? it's nice to understand people. or maybe just learn business now? a 3-4 year course? maybe 5 year course with attachment to prepare us much more for the working world? who cares about why the graphs curve here and there.. or the weird equations that we probably won't be seeing for the rest of our lives? RJ life is just starting to weigh on me and kill me. oh, i cracked the wall at the chin-up bars just at the back of the odac room.. just a little chip off.. yea, i vent my anger at walls. i don't vent it on people, i'm a nice person.. pillars are not bad too.. or you could just buy me a large wooden block like the one donnie yen uses in ip man.. but then again, i might just break it accidentally on a bad day. forget it. walls are the best. it's CONCRETE evidence that RJ is stressful..(get the pun?) but life isnt.. it's just where we are that makes us this way.. if we were born somewhere else like australia, i think i'd be running a clinic now, or a counselling workshop.. hahax.. or maybe already working in some MNC, some small post, but nevertheless good enough to tide by before i prove myself worthy of marketing the company's products on my own.. yea, i'm a born speaker.. white turns to black in front of me, cos i can make good points sound bad.. LOL.. wordplay.. that's how i always get through overly strict teachers.. (doesn't work on my parents though.. they know me too well.. haiz..)
then again, we have no one to blame, not even god.. and amazingly, we should be happy that we're born here now... instead of being born in some 3rd world country(in which case i would starve and die, since i have absolutely no survival skills besides fighting..).. should be satisfied with what we have now ba.. don't blame god. don't blame yourself.(since you did not choose to be born as you. or maybe if you did, then this probably was your choice then due to imperfect information..) you have no one to blame. life's like this. take it by the reins. you can trust in god that he will guide you through, or you can trust in yourself, and the advice people give you. either way, it's your life in the end. and it's quite sad if you let others force you to live it in their way. i just thought of a quote.
"Life is like a hand of cards. You don't get to choose what cards you get, but you make the best out of it." ----- The Rising Power.
you can ask god how to play that hand, and he might help you. or you could ask your friends for advice, and take their advice.. but always remember, that they are playing the game of life too. and they might advise you to do things against your benefit, but to their advantage.. so trust the right people.
just did a facebook quiz..
What is Your Purpose in Life? You are an Angel in Human form. “Just your presence is a blessing to those around you, your positive attitude is implacable and radiates change for the better in everything you do and to those around you but everything in its time thus although you may not immediately be aware of your gift everything you do, have done and are about to do is destined to enrich you in a multitude of ways. You have been put on this earth to make a difference use your gift wisely.” righttt.. and how do i do that when my life is now so messed up..?
well.. i guess it's nature, in the end, life's just the way it is. it can be really unfair, but we all gotta face up to it. and play the hand in the best way we can.. god be willing. any anger sch gives you, don't bring it home. don't take it out on people. be nice. take it out on the sch. nip the cause at it's root. kill it.
chem lecture test was bad tdy. they only cater for the smart people yea? so now what? i so want to punch the idiot who set such a paper. right in the face. make him realize that it's not funny to crush students' ego just like that. after they've studied to hard, and are expecting good grades, you kill their hopes. i've got half a mind of knocking the daylights out of you. yes, this is a threat. and it is real. i don't care. if it happens again, i'll scan the paper and mail it to the ministry. and we shall see how you deal with it. if passing the paper puts you in the top 5% percentile, there's seriously a problem with the paper isn't it? yes, indeed angels in human forms have been put on this earth to make a difference. because they dare to stand for what they believe is right.
slashed at 8:11 PM .
