i used to ask myself, what's the use of helping others, when in the end you just burn yourself out, give yourself unnecessary stress, and put your life at risk. worst thing is that some people blame you for helping them.
just a story: (after helping this guy's dad get away from some thugs, cos he owed them money.) "why did you save him? he beat me everyday. the blood on the wall is from my mum. i wish you were never here." "but he's your dad." "i don't have a father, and you're an idiot. get lost."
well, now you see that J's not the only reason why i gave up yea? i'd never know if i had made the right choices in what i did. i only did what i did because i din want anyone to get hurt. but by doing these things, maybe i was creating much more hurt in this world rather than reducing it. yea, and the day i gave up, the same day i gave up on the idea that i could find a pure heart in people.
heh.. hmm.. i see someone learnt how to encrypt text too.. =D
yea, feeling much better now.. just not very pleased with my grades.. so just v emo abt it. but i'm getting better. yea, i won't show it in sch. it's no point bringing misery to e ppl around you when you are emo rite. spreading happiness and sharing joy is one thing, but sharing emoness is certainly quite immoral.
slashed at 7:04 PM .