10:20pm. opened blogger. mum just helped me apply ginger citronella oil on my ankle. supposedly helps it cure faster. thanks mum. i love you. i stare at her left leg where the black mark still remains. i feel a deep sense of remorse. i'm an ungrateful child. i deserve to die. i was only six then. k2.
10:25pm. i sometimes hate my selective memory. hypnosis doesn't cure it. though it would be something i'd want to remember forever. to remember how much i owe her. and let it be a reminder to myself how dangerous i am. a six year old kid. i must have been driven to the wall. but i will never forgive myself.
10:29pm. still not concentrating on work. econs essay due tmr. thinking abt this evening. i guess this goodbye is at least better than the last one. i was hoping to see your smile one last time. and you watch me walk away for one last time too. i ask for no more. it's enough. and it's good enough. i'll remember that smile. yea, stupid me met sb.
11:03pm. half hr more to reaping superberries. heh. remember to call simjoo at 12am. and reap the last few superberries at 12:30. meanwhile, finish econs essay. and send sabina the avocado tree that she wanted. heh. yea. made a friend on farmville. from SO6Q. yea, the class just beside mine. yea, i accept all friend adds, even ppl i dun know. lol. courtesy sake ok. it's a mutual friendship. when someone extends his hand, shake it. taoing creates enemity. friendship begets kindness.
11:13pm. stop daydreaming. or nightdreaming. lol. back to work. econs essay.
11:35pm. random thought. was studying with eileen this morning. discussing some math. and this rude girl from the table beside shouted across, "excuse me, can you please soften your volume!" and stared at us. ok. we weren't talking loudly. and i know my voice is naturally soft. so wth was tt?? was about to shout at her and smash her head into the table. eileen kinda told me to chill and let her off. wth la. go pick on someone else. like so many ppl talking so loudly and we're only chatting. ok, i need to control my temper. if the same thing happens and it's the same person, i'm seriously going to knock some sense into her. haven't fought since sec4. i've a clean record for 1yr. hope i don't have to break it. if even eileen agrees that someone's a bitch, then she probably is.
11:59pm. i care too much about ppl around me. i need help. ): vic asked me to learn to be more selfish. yea. learning la. still learning. and still cannot learn. should call simjoo now. (: and gdnite world.
slashed at 10:21 PM .