ranting post. don't read.
i could kill just about anyone right now. that insensible idiot first. i think we just don't get along. we're both hot-headed, and she talks shit. you know what, you just fuck off and die. i don't know why i have a mum like you. while i can live for others, you only care about your fucking selfish needs. i'm imagining myself slashing you over and over. why can't you just be more understanding like dad?
was supposed to go for WG outing tdy.. but mum killed it. great. i think i get stronger when i'm angry. might just smash a few walls and walk away. one day i guess i'll finally learn how to break a hole through walls. fucking pissed. and i'm just irritated with the talk of cash, cash and cash. i'm not a person who hankers after more and more cash, so what's the big deal with having as much fucking cash as possible? i hate your fucking selfish ideals as much as you hate my guts. but i've got my own life to lead so just shut the fuck up and leave me alone.
so much for having a more cultured blood. in the end, we're all just the same if we choose to be selfish and forget who we really are and our ideals that we protect. we become selfish and self centered the moment we relinquish our duties. so that's how it is? that's how we have come so far as a country because people are competing with one another to see who earns the most money and who is richer?
some part of me knows that that's the truth. and i can't blame anyone for that. but the other part of me hates this fact, and wants to deny it. i don't think it was a bad decision to have left, but we still should live in the way we know is right, isn't it?
ok, whatever la. i'm just damn frustrated at not being able to go, yet i know i don't have much time for my studies left, and part of me also needs an outlet, and a breather. yea.. oh wells. i should get someone to help me make decisions la. :(
slashed at 11:00 AM .