gd thing there's a notebook. can record stuffs.

i not know what i'm fighting for. it's not just about becoming strong, to defeat your enemy and fight to defend your homeland.

but it's about fighting for that little girl, at the parade square, shouting "jia-you! jia--you!" to her brother.

yea, it sounds stupid now, the girl even looks stupid, but in a war, it's people like her, that you want to protect, your fellow countrymen, the innocents who are unable to fend for themselves.

and that gives you the power to fight.

something burns in you, telling you that's the good in people you want to protect. and that gives you the power to fight, the desire to eliminate the threat for the sake of these people who need you.

yea, i know why i'm a soldier now. i'll fight for the people i wanna protect.

there's some cheer that goes, "children having fun while we are holding guns.." it's an honor yea.

dun have to carry weapons. lol. guess tt puts me out of danger ba. air force. hope will be quite gd. no guns = no stupid guy misfiring and no grenade landing right beside you. guess it's kinda safe yea?

thinking of transferring all the day's transcripts inot my blog when i get home. hahax.

11.25am. slacking and waiting for lunch. e smell of e bed reminds me of jiayu's chalet. heh. sleeping on top bunk now, staring at celing. life here's quite different from home. guess like e seargent said, it's a gd time to get to know more ppl and their cultures yea.

someone just said "fuck" is an expression, not a vulgarity, so it's not considered bad discipline. LOL! but he's a nice guy, really.

k, going for lunch soon. short hair feels diff. guess it's an experience ba.

4.30pm. lecture quite boring. but need to know la. basic stuffs la. easy way out, just don't break any laws, then u wun need to know wad happens if you break them la. rite? heh.

wore RSAF uniform tdy! hahax. looks damn nice sia. looks smart ba. saw qiwen, seetoh, at lunch. oh, and quanwei same company as me. lol.

learnt marching in e morning. quite an eye-opener yea. bttr than 1st day, a lot of admin work. this is at least a more authentic army experience yea.

4.30 next lecture. now stoning in bunk. 3.50pm. watch broke just now, glass came off, still working fine though. stitched it up with scotchtape. black tape.

jc peeps came to visit. lol. and some ppl lk nv see girls b4. -.-

tmr got injection. damn scared sia. yea, i can never be nurse, unlike some ppl. hor? heh..

my bunk buddy, mark, asked me whether i had a gf. hahax.. yea, he's right ba, can't commit, means meet only once or twice. yea la, not fair to tie down someone for 2 yrs. loving someone means letting them be happy, even if it means letting them go. sad, but true.

tmr got some discussion, abt wad u feel abt ns. yea, the little girl at the waiting line motivates me. if i were a soldier at the frontline, what i'll have in my head is this image, and it gives me the strength to persevere on.

jaguar got 3 ghost. wanna follow for lunch. haha. den dinner got 4 ghost. march from cookhouse got 49, come back got only 46. lol. seriously man, some ppl dunno how to march. -_-" and dunno which platoon to go to. day 3 le leh! walao. lol. mark said heng not pes a or b, if not surely kena screwed big time sia.

some stupid stuffs: well known ppl in platoon ---> alien guy, and indian driver. former walks out of line all e time, and latter has attitude prob and marches lk driving liddat. kns sia. else without them it'll b a v nice march le. all v in time and tight. well, every place has its black sheep ba. army teaches us tolerance for others yea.

seargents sometimes quite strict, but it's for our own good and discipline ba. else the whole batch sure kena ggxx. learning to march in air force batch quite cool yea. a great sense of accomplishment when everyone is tight and marching in step.

lost a bet tdy, end up half e section drink 1l bottle each of water. LOL. yea, all in good fun ba. luck thalasaemia can dilute eh? hahax. kk, going slp le.

tmr injection. sucks sia.

platoon 1 section 4! hahax. yea, my section quite nice ba, not screwed up lk e other 2 or 3 in my platoon. jokers got quite a few but here, only 1 la, our dear section IC. LOLLLL. eat, sleep, and shit. HEH. yea, actually i'm really proud of us man. ppl get all sorts of excuses, trying to keng in PES e. but though we all pes e, we still heck the wdv medical conditions, and just march on.

c'mon la, army u dun wanna learn how to march well, then where's the pride in wearing e uniform? we will work and fight tgt yea! "cos we love our land, and we fight and we fight to be free.."

10.00am got injection. not looking forward to it. scared shitless actually.

11.30am. just got injection. freaking scary sia. tdy's breakfast chicken pie damn nice. hahax.. aft lunch go march. army = eat, march, eat, march again. marching v impt, and it burns up all e calories from the food. LOL. but now our marching much tighter le, not bad, march liddat, other ppl dunno you're from pes e le. heh. just 1 or 2 black sheep ba.

POC in aftn! yesterday was the last supper. HAHA. yea, ytd nite talking a lot of crap. lol.. abt the french guy in our section. yea, our dear section ic. lol.. cannot mention names. i scared confidential. lol.

yea, must be careful while blogging, cos some info kinda classified, so play safe, dun tell ppl wad they dun already know. lets say some parents know abt the platoon and company, so safe to say la. hahax. yea, tricks of safe blogging, dun release new info, then you're safe le.

k, going to POC soon. and then back to mainland. frigging tired sia. 6 hrs of slp quite little for sb who has been slppin for 10 hrs for e last 5 mths. HEH. but in times of war, this is it yea. we don't have the luxury of sleep, and we gotta stay alert with e bare minimum.

NS is an experience yea. those thinking of ponning, or finding ways to pon, don't pon la, seriously. it's not as bad as ppl make it out to be. seargents are human just like us. but they just have to be strict so that the rebellious type can observe discipline. they're still people, just like us, not monsters like those stories.

k, getting posted to my new unit on monday. looking fwd to it. safety precautions when handling docs: create a new personality. one which retains info, but keeps it to himself, so extra 1 more personality ba, swap out of it each time i exit the office ba. 14 in total now. heh. bttr than risking kena db yea. it's e safest method i can think of. lol.

kk, journal ends here. lol. a milestone in life yea. every boy that enters army, sees the world for himself, and gains experience enough to make him a man. loyalty, responsibility, leadership, integrity, care for others, professionalism. heh.

reformatted my comp. so it's really empty now. lol. yea, gotta re install JD.

and i'm thinking, sheron should just go into mediacorp yea. be one of the new actresses. hahax.. can earn more than staying at hotel management ma. yea, my ex boss. few yrs older ba. recently added her on fb, after seeing her emo nick on msn and cheering her up.

time flies. monday going cmpb. lol. gd thing night can still come out. change into cv first though. maybe next week go catch ironman with priscilla or aiting. yea, i wanted to ask sb else, but i think tt sb will give me an excuse, and we won't get to watch it tgt, so might as well dun ask. but if u want, i dun mind going yea, sms me, i dun ask u cos i just scared of getting rejected, tt's all.

new life ahead of me now. goal for army life, i wanna climb to lance corporal. slowly, but surely. better than staying as private all my life ba. yay. upgraded from recruit to private le ba. :)

going facebook play games now. cya!